I don't have the patience or stamina to deal with new things right now. The effort it takes to meet new people, set up new jobs, incorporate new hobbies - while maintaining my schooling, working and overpopulated group of friends and family (all of whom I love dearly) - but honestly, how do I find any time or spare emotions to give out...I don't know that I can. Generally, I'm always up for new things - I welcome the experiences with open arms...but tonight, I'm tired......tired and frustrated. The past few weeks have been like a rollercoaster - with new people, new possibilities, new options - it's just a little overwhelming. I think I'm going to hide for a couple of days - see if that helps...tomorrow I'm going to do nothing but veg out, do a little studying for a midterm I have on Monday, bbq up some grubbin' food, write a song or two on my guitar and maybe squeeze in a rented movie here and there. I think I just need some time to be alone and enjoy myself - not have to entertain people's silly notions of me - just loaf around all day. Ahhh....sounds like heaven. Ok, so the ringers are getting turned off - the instant messengers are all going on invisible - and I'm going to be in isolation. I can't wait to breathe.